My Smile

Why is life so cruel?
I've never had an easy life but it was a happy one.
Growing up in my family had its difficulties yet we still somehow managed.
I was born a happy child yet my smile became fake along the way.
It all started during Junior High.
Many girls would think having a boyfriend at such a young was cool and awesome.
I thought so too when I got my first boyfriend.
Yet I didn't know that it meant trouble as well.
My smile started to fade then.
He raped me.
I never told anyone about it when it happened.
My parents to this day don't know.
When I was in High School I got my second boyfriend.
I told him about what happened and told him about my status.
Yep that's right I am undocumented.
He didn't care and even when I broke up with him because I was scarred
That my status would be the reason why he would leave.
He wouldn't let me go and I loved him for that.
So I stayed with him and slowly my smile came back.
During my junior year in High School,
I took up a job at a bakery and was sexually harassed by a coworker of mine.
Once again my smile started to fade.
I left the job.
Only my mom knows about this one.
My boyfriend was still with me and helped me to regain my smile back slowly again.
I went to college and graduated.
My boyfriend after 9 years and 4 months of being together dumped me.
My fear came true.
Dumped because of my status.
Isn't that something.
The one person who I thought would NEVER hurt me.
Wounded me the most.
My smile is gone.